I toyed with scrapping everything and starting over with this little ol’ website of mine because I haven’t been here in a while, but then I thought that would be dumb for a multitude of reasons. And also, once I got into the whole redesign aspect of it, I just wasn’t in the mood for it.
It then dawned on me that I was most likely using this as an excuse to not *ahem cough cough* write my novel. Clever, clever girl but not this time, bitch. I’m on a mission to finish the first draft of my most ambitious novel by March. It’s gonna be a goddamn bloodbath too.
And yeah, I did say “my most ambitious novel”. I’ve got so many starts on various novels, you guys. No finishes yet. *sob* So of course, I decide to finish the one that will inevitably break me with the world building.
But ya know, that’s okay. It needs to be okay. I… need to be okay with my process being a fucking mess. I need to let go of my perfectionism and allow the world I’ve built up in my head to flow through my fingers and splatter its chaotic guts all over this screen before me. It’s the only way I will finish this thing. And considering I know my strong point to be rewriting (I think… oh god, is it??), I am hoping, hoping future drafts will be easier than this retching my guts out or what others call “writing the first draft”.
So, here we are. The holidays are upon us, showering us with gravy and glitter whether we were/are prepared for it or not. Another year is closing its doors behind us, whispering “Good luck!” and “It will be okay” all at the same time.
I don’t know about you, but I will be happy to bid adieu to 2018. Personally, it wasn’t bad but it also wasn’t as great as I wanted it to be, and another fucked up year living in the United States under that asshat we elected to the presidency is more than enough for me to yearn for hypersleep until 2021. Two more years to go, you guys!
Anyway, I am cautious yet hopeful the next two years will at least be more balanced with Democratic control of the House. Maybe? Possibly? *fingers crossed* And I don’t know, maybe this country will finally get its shit together? Hopefully? This administration is predictable yet unpredictable all at the same time. We hope for sensibility and decency but receive chaos and major “WTF” moments day after day. I fear the damage has already been done. That we have backpedaled way too far. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see. Just remember, folks, your best weapons are your voice and your vote.
MAKE. IT. HEARD.
And if you’re not personally affected by any of the actions of our administration? (Read: you’re a straight, white, cisgender man person who is not an asshat and thinks everyone should be treated the same and given equal opportunities.) Even more reason for you to SPEAK. UP.
Fight for your marginalized fellow Americans seeking fair and equal treatment, fight for the safety of us all from gun violence, fight for those seeking a better country to call home for themselves and their children, fight for why this country was founded in the first place.
Love and peace to you all this holiday season. ♥
*Image is from inside the Underground Hygge in Orondo, Washington. It’s a cool little space available to rent through Airbnb! I highly recommend the experience. The owner was building a second one when we visited and last I heard, has plans for a total of three hobbit holes and a community kitchen.
The place is solar-powered with backup generators. The hubs and I went in the winter for the experience of snow because as Midwesterners living in Seattle, we miss snow in the city! But, I recommend staying in the warmer months unless you’re prepared for a bit of hobbit work keeping the lights on and the place warm. It was quite dark and below freezing in February! ;)